... what a silly word.

I was just looking back on my past journals ... wow. The entirety of my high school experience in a series of journals. It's embarrassing how ignorant and selfish I was and I hope I've changed. It really does feel like I'm reading a journal of a complete stranger. I start to wonder if I have a clinically diagnosable form of depression.

It would explain a lot.

But it's not like I could do anything about it anyway (oh, right, that doesn't sound emo or anything). I just mean that I would never take medication and I do my best to create a stable environment for myself as it is. I guess this is me. I really do think that in a partner ... in a life-partner ... I need someone who is my Rock, someone who differs from me in the sense that they are down to Earth. I need someone who can keep me there too. Sometimes I don't like being a Pisces.

I wonder also if I have memory loss. I mean, I've always suspected. Something is not right. I couldn't tell you what I DID today for goodness sake. Well, ta ta for now. These are just thoughts. I have lots of those (heh, and then I forget them).


I'm thinking of you. Although, I really shouldn't be. *shrugs* It's going to happen anyway.

Oh, by the way ... I downloaded "Ain't so Green" if you'd like to snag it from me. ^_^ Good times.